Today was the last day of my first rotation of 2018! Never had I known Gen Med to be so tolerable as I had this year. Of course it may have had something to do with the fact that I am a final year medical student and as such I am a legitimate member of the team not just the awkward appendage that opens curtains and turns lights on as a 4th year student.
No more. I am needed. I am important! I am a Trainee Intern and I am second to the house officer.
It’s been really great actually. My house officer had been extremely helpful in teaching me how to be a house officer next year. I was doing jobs and learning the ways. My consultants were lovely and actually took an interest in me, making an effort to teach, etc. It was such a change to the experience in my 4th year.
But it’s been 6 weeks and it was time to end. I had my long case assessment which was entirely horrendous. Basically I had to take a history and do a focused examination on a patient with a long-term issue. These usually being medical issues like diabetes or heart failure or something along those lines. And these patients are supposed to know the drill and know quite a lot about their conditions. I however, got Mrs. Vague from Lost Town in Shadyville.
Me: So, what concerns you mainly about your health?
Patient: Well I had a fall 50 years ago. I hurt my back. And I haven’t been able to walk since.
Me: Oh I see. Could you tell me a little bit about that?
Patient: Well, I fell over and hurt my back. I had a surgery, and I haven’t been able to walk since.
Me: What surgery did you have?
Patient: A surgery on my back which took the pain away but left my legs feeling like lard. I couldn’t move them, couldn’t feel anything, and I had to have physiotherapy for 1 year.
Me: Oh so you’re able to walk now?
Patient: Yes I walk fine now. I don’t need supports or anything.
Me: Okay and how is the feeling in your legs now?
Patient: Oh much the same. They feel like lard. Like I can’t move them at all. And I have foot drop in both my legs. But I can walk fine. Everything is fine!
Horrendous. She kept talking in circles and I had no idea what her problem was. When I presented to the consultant, he told me that she actually had a failed spinal surgery where a few nerves were accidentally cut!! I never would have gotten that out of her. Meanwhile, the other students had garden variety patients with diabetes and atrial fibrillation.
I had this awful 10 minutes before presenting to the consultant where I was sure I had failed. Fortunately for me, both the examiner in the room, and the consultant I presented to recognised that I had a particularly difficult case and said I did well, and I passed!
Thank you Universe!
And then on my last day, my own consultant gave me a good report. She told me I had been a wonderful addition to the team and I would make a great doctor. Which was so nice to hear. It just gives you that boost of confidence. After two years of being unsure about everything, it made me feel good. That maybe I’m finally doing enough to come across as someone competent. Who does belong in medicine. But anyway, as I’ve mentioned before, I’m useless at receiving compliments still, so I just sort of smiled and said thank you. Hopefully she didn’t think I was being weird.
The Gen Med rotation and the long case are huge hurdles for this year. The long case is the major assessment 6th year students are expected to pass. I’m really grateful that I was able to get through it and feel competent doing so.
But anyway. I’m properly exhausted now. Gen med is the most tiring rotation to be on. I’m moving on to rural GP starting Monday. So hopefully that’ll be a good change of pace and I can get some decent rest. Hopefully not famous last words. xD