Vicarious 

Everyone has a vision of what they want their life to be like.

Thinking about travelling a lot, going places on their own, working in a bunch of different jobs and meeting different people

Being able to be with whoever they want

Experiencing a lot of different things.
Sometimes I think my life is a lot less exciting than I thought it would be.

I mean strictly speaking there’s not a lot wrong with my life. And I’m grateful for a lot of things.

But sometimes I see people who come from similar walks of life to me but who have a lot of the things I would have wanted for my own life. 

Hearing about these things is fascinating and exciting because it’s what I wanted but didn’t get.

My life is basically a slow, steady incline without much variance. 

I’ve still got many years to go and things could happen. But I probably have to make them happen. Whereas the stories I hear sound as though people were given opportunities they took.

I know realistically that’s not true. Everybody has to make certain things happen for themselves, but I wonder if they had a lot of the things holding them back as I do. 

I want to travel, I wish I had studied in an exotic place, I wish I had learnt a bunch of new things in different places and worked a bunch of different jobs with different skills. 

But none of that stuff happened to me. 

I mean I’ve tried planning many trips to different places, but they had never really worked out. But when others do, bam. They’re on their way. 

Or so it seems to me.

I don’t know. Guess I’ll just have to see what I can do with my life. And get what I want. 

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