Does anyone else feel like they’re still waiting for things to get better?
Remember how we were all like “YES BRING ON 2021 GOODBYE 2020 THINGS WILL BE SO MUCH BETTER!!” ?
Has anyone gotten what they were expecting?
I don’t think I have.
NZ is still flitting in and out of lockdown, still waiting on the vaccine, still has closed borders to the rest of the world. People still making noise about masks, still seeing covid news everywhere, still not improved.
Personally, I feel like the other things in my life have also not improved as I had hoped. It’s March already. ALREADY.
I have been studying. I am planning to sit my physicians college exams in 2022. Yep you really do have to start studying a year early. There really is that much content.
But it’s more than that. I guess I was hoping beyond hope that something would change.. you know?
Like I would experience something new, people would understand me better, I would understand people better, I would come in to my role as a registrar and it would feel different and I would feel different… just…something.
I thought at least things would feel more.. fixed. More sure? I guess? But everything is still as fluffy as it always was. Every time there is a disagreement or confusion, everything seems so broken and without solution. And it continues to feel this way. I’m not sure what I was hoping for.
Ahh what a bleak train of thought. But seriously, shouldn’t something have happened by now?
I’m not sure.. But I’m still waiting…