Stop To Be Grateful
Been super busy lately. Trying to balance everything and trying to pace myself.
Keeping up with project work, study, exam practice, work, exercise, family and friends, and self-care time is all a lot.
I’m trying to be very careful not to burn out too quickly. So far I’m doing okay but I do have waves of feeling overwhelmed.
But in all my feelings of fear and being overwhelmed, I need to stop to be grateful for the people around me right now. I didn’t quite make enough space for that.
I had to stop today and just reflect for a little while on how great everyone around me has been, lately.
SS, who never turns down an opportunity to hang out with me, no matter how short notice. Willing to go on practically any adventure with me.
AA, who checks in whenever she can, always has something positive to say and showed me immense loyalty when our trust was tested. Still telling me I’ve done nothing wrong and encouraging me to stay positive and keep going. Making plans with me to go to exciting places and have fun
Sc who never tires of talking to me or hearing about my troubles, offering advice and sharing stories and consistently telling me how much hope she has for my success.
R, who has become my partner in crime in every way. Planning all the best trips together, studying together, laughing together, complaining together, listening to the best music together. R has enriched my life in so many ways.
M, who inspires me with her persistence and energy. Her positivity and loyalty, she keeps reminding me to be aware of “how great I am” and how much I’ve achieved, even when I don’t believe it myself. M cheers me on relentlessly. And it means so much to me.
Nat, who is continuing to inspire me with the way she leads life and still making effort to have the best time when we meet up. Leaving me on a high note every time we interact.
HN, who is just there. Always, consistently, constantly, just there. HN’s gentle words and demeanour. He always knows just what to say. His patience as I rattle on about the same problem I’m having for the 50 millionth time, but responds as though he’s not tired of it at all, is astounding. HN gets me. One of those people who would never leave you on seen, and would respond to each message even if they were on different topics. Because he cares. It means the whole world to me to have HN in my life, I would be lost without his constant presence and support. Taking the time out of his life to coach me through different exam techniques and being there to practice with me until I get it right.
TA, who has been so supportive, the only one of my friends who not only read something I had published but also commented on it publicly to improve my ratings. He’s been spending every weekend with me doing focused exam practice. Time he’s dedicated to me so I would do well in the exam. I cannot describe my gratitude for this.
J, who continues to coach me in life. Who is always just one phone call away whether I’m stressed, happy, having a meltdown, anything. J is a phone call away with the best advice, best support, best stories.
G, who is my oldest friend, who I’ve known for a majority of the time I’ve been alive, still sticking around, still making so much effort to keep in touch, to hang out, to share stories and laughs. His kindness, his willingness to drop everything to be there for me if I need him, is so special. It’s such a blessing to have had a friend last this long.
L, who is on an entirely different track in life than me but still manages to keep in touch and meet up with me and share her stories about life. She encourages me all the time and also keeps me from overthinking too much.
B, who keeps in touch every day sharing stories and being supportive when I need to rant or he needs to rant or we both need to rant. Sharing hacks for the job to each other to get through the day. It’s rare to have someone who gets more angry about your situation than you do. It’s really nice.
And T. T, who, despite distance and time, manages to brighten my day without fail. T still puts in effort despite that geographical distance between us. T has an uncanny ability to know when I’m down or having a rough day, and tends to send me something – a post, a video, a meme, a kind few words, a story. Anything, and it instantly improves my day. I don’t think T has any idea how much of an impact this has on my life. How much I value his friendship. T has become my happy place. I’m so grateful to him.
I read over all of this and I think to myself how grateful I am to have these wonderful people who care about me, who make life worth living, who believe in me, who cheer me on. They make me want to be a better person everyday. They remind me that I am someone worth caring about. All of these people are a mere text or phone call away if I need them.
And so no matter how overwhelmed I get, it helps to stop for a second and think about all of my lovely friends who help me get through the day and keep trying. I pull the good vibes they bring around me like a blanket. And I think it’ll be okay.
A photo captured on one of my adventures with SS.